Profile givemelifegivemepain: Masochist Bottom for Domestic Violence

Basic Information Tell us a bit about yourself.

I Can Speak English
I Would Describe Myself As I was born plain white trash. After years of expensive education I am now white trash with a finely-tuned sense of irony. I'm queer, a freak pussy who likes pussy too. I can carry on a nuanced, informed conversation about art, politics, culture before you fuck me up. I want you to fuck me up. The more it hurts the more it means. I've got secrets I want to tell you and stories I need to play out. I'm searching for all my demons, all you devils and your deeds.
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Appearance & Situation What's your present situation? Describe your appearance.

Status What do you do?

Personality How do you act? What are your tastes?

Back In High School, I Was A Quiet One
My Social Behavior Is Reserved, Observant, Dark
My Interest And Hobbies Are Reading, Learning, Music, Movies, Internet, Dancing, Family, Religion / Spirituality, Theater, Cooking
My Idea Of A Great Time Is Staying At Home, The Movies, Reading A Book, Going To A Concert, Going To A Museum
An Ideal First Date Would Be You pick me up. You smile at me, say hello. We go out for dinner, talk quietly. You charm me, take charge. We go to a movie, or maybe a concert. You hold my hand, put your arm around me. We go for a walk, or to a coffee house. We come back home. Together. You tilt my chin at the angle you want, lean in to kiss me. Whisper in my ear. Tell me what I need to hear.
I've Always Wanted To Try Dance classes (I've taken them before, in college, but I'd like to do more). Learning to speak French or German. Learning to play piano, or taking up the clarinet again (I played as a kid).
My Friends Describe Me As Being Raunchy, Obscure

Views Views on life.

My Religion Is Agnostic
I Attend Services Never
My Political Views Are Very Liberal
My Goal In Life Is In terms of my career, I'm working towards my Ph.D. in English. From there, I intend to continue teaching at university, publishing a little. Eventually I'd like to move to Europe (Germany, ideally). As to my private life, who knows? If I map out the journey too soon I could miss seeing the forest for the trees.
My Kind Of Humor Is Clever, Dry / Sarcastic

Taste What do you like?

On Tv, I Always Watch I Don't Like Tv
When I Go To The Movies, I Always Go To See A Drama
When Listening To Music, I Always Listen To Rock, Classical, Folk
When I Read, I Always Read Classic, Fiction, History, Music, Philosophy, Political, Poetry, I'm An Author
My Idea Of Fun Is Live music; could be a concert, the symphony, the opera. A local book reading or lecture. An afternoon at the museum. A dance performance. Great movies, on DVD at home or out at the cineplex. A night at the theater. A long walk in the park.

Looking for What are you looking for in your soulmate?

What Do You Find Attractive? Intelligence, Good Looks, Humor, Great Skills, Sensitivity, Boldness, Oddities, Money, Power, Wit, Thoughtfullness
What Do You Look For? A guy who is into the psychology behind the sex, who gets off on inflicting emotional as well as physical pain; who likes to fuck with minds as much as he likes to fuck holes; who has a talent for humiliation, exploiting hidden shame, inspiring fear. I won't give up control easily. I'm too self-protected. Wreck my defenses. Take me deeper into my pain. Not into switch/vers guys or master/slave bullshit, which is just costumes and play-acting. There’s a big distinction between B&D (which is just weak posturing) and S&M (which I respond to much more deeply). I don't need to be tied up. Pain is more meaningful if I receive it as an act of will. Ropes, cuffs, hoods, all that bondage shit: a turnoff. If you need to restrain me or wear a special hat to get what you want I won't be impressed. I want a true sadist. Overpower me with your inner strength, your drive to see me break; your amused look as your hands are on my throat; your cold grin as you force me to tongue-clean your boots.
What Kind Of Relationship Are You Seeking? Date, Intimate, Committed